Did I prove you wrong?

50.4 kg, this is the way it should be.
Tomorrow I am aiming for 50 kg.
There is no better feeling than starvation.

10.4 kg to go...

It's been a while..

It's been a while and it seems like I have lost some followers.

Even though I haven't been posting, Ana is still following me but she isn't succeeding and she is getting angry and upset. I'm begging Ana please don't leave me, I need you, you are the only thing that gives me a sense of accomplishment. The only one who rewards me for my efforts.

And even though I am 51.2 kg I will not fail you once again.
As of today I want 40 kg and no more.
By the end of today I want to be 50.8kg.

boyfriend

Crying to my boyfriend telling him how unhappy I am with all the weight I have put on and that I can't lose any of it...and he tells me that "I'm fine". Fine. Fine is not how I fucking want to be, Fine is telling me I am a fat whale who does need to lose weight. I would rather be dead than be fine.

All I want to be is perfect for everyone.