bad bad place

I'm in a bad place right now.

I feel like I can't do anything anymore because I feel so anxious.
I was clothes shopping with my mum today and I got so worried about trying things on it was pathetic like I freaked out because I know how fat I am. I broke down in the change rooms and said to my mum i was so fat. I fucked up now she is going to be on my case she will watch me and my eating habits like a hawk.

I'm sorry to those I have not replied to..atm I just need my solidarity.

Love you girls

Nikki xoxo