Me
18.
Procrastinator
High achiever
Athletic
Not thin enough
Not pretty enough
Not good enough.
The end.
Family
Dysfunctional
Bunch of hypocrites
Extremely Critical
Friends
Backstabbers
Liars
Critical
Judgemental
Selfish
Boyfriend
He is the only one who deserves full sentences.
I feel like I owe it to him to share with this community how lucky I am to have him.
He is the reason, I am still here.
The reason why I 'recovered', the reason I haven't jumped off a cliff.
He is supportive, hardworking, loving, caring, but it's all those things that make it so hard.
I want to be skinny more than anything else, such a selfish thing but I can't help it.
I don't deserve someone like him.
I am constantly fighting with myself...eat, don't eat, be healthy for him, be skinny for him.
I will be skinny for him, and he will love me either way.
