50.8kg this morning, surprised after I had a massive binge.
I went to the gym, now I'm at Uni. My life is blahhhh.
Looking at all the other girls at this Uni just makes me want to kill myself...they are all literally so hot (bar a few) that it makes me that depressed.
I'm a fat blob and I better get to 49kg by Friday otherwise punishment will be reintroduced.
How did I let myself go...how did ana let me slip from her restrictive grasp.
I will be perfect, intelligent, humble, graceful, sensitive, energetic, loving, strong...I could go on and on about the things I will be but my list would never end. I have high hopes and I'll get there...eventually.
Love Nikki
xoxo
You'll be better than them all <3
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