Fuck this shit.
I am a pig, a big fat fucking pig.

Stupid girl, fat girl, ugly girl, chubby girl, short girl.
No one needs to state the obvious, I know it all too well.

The burn I feel when I see my reflection, the tightness of my chest, the feeling like I'm about to implode into myself.

Fuck my friends I don't need them, I don't need anyone.
Just me and people like me...struggling to get away from their inner demons, struggling to break free from their thick layers of skin, struggling to feel worth.


Stupid girl Nikki.  You let yourself down...once again, do you even want this? Or do you want to stay fat the rest of your life.